I woke up this morning to the pounding of the rain on my window, and that set the tone for the whole day. I love the rain. I love everything about it. The idea that the earth is being nurtured and that new things will grow, the thought of being snuggled in a blanket and not moving....all of it. It's my favorite. I can't remember the last time I had a full rainy day to do nothing. This morning is no different. I have a dentist appointment followed by work, so I figured I would enjoy the part of the day that I could. I got up early, made myself a frappe, a Cypriot breakfast, and sat down in my sun room watching the rain pour down.
Lately I haven't been much of a morning person, but usually when I have more of a routine I get up early and give myself time. I think the exhaustion has taken that from me, and now I value every second of sleep I can get, even if it means rushing around once I get up. When it rains I usually start to miss something, or someone. Today I was missing my Grandma. I've been thinking about her a lot lately, and how much I miss being a kid and spending my summers with her. Everything was so simple, and I remember I complained about how "boring" it was because we didn't have a lot of toys or a television with cartoons, but now looking back, it is one of my favorite memories.
I miss having a simple life. If I ever had one at all? I guess I just miss things being more simple, not worrying about so much. Part of me wants to just run away for a few months and hide in the mountains somewhere, but unfortunately there are too many deadlines, and too many things to get done. There's never enough time. Maybe one day I can follow through and really find a simple kind of life. All I know is that it involves a lot of fresh air, and a lot of relaxation.
i miss this.