Give Me Hope For The Night


We made it. The end of another long, yet quick year. In some ways I think back to a year ago, and not a lot has changed..Christmas still crept up on me this year, I still love writing this blog, and I definitely still have the same passions I had a year ago. Although a lot of the same things have lingered in my life, a lot has changed as well. It takes a year sometimes to look back and reflect to realize how far you've really come. A year ago I hadn't yet applied to FIT, I was still working on the ins and outs of this blog, and although I seemed happy and content, there was a lot going on that went unseen in the background; as there always is.

The great thing about time is the fact that it helps with healing, it helps you grow, and at the same time allows you to reflect on your growth. I am proud of myself this year. There were definitely some instances where I didn't feel like myself, but luckily the universe always has a way of working things out, and I can say that I feel like a new person.


What did I learn about myself this year? I am not scared to put myself out there, I am extremely proud of this blog and my courage to jump back into school and a completely different career. Struggles provide you with the strength to change things, and make a change in your own life, and every single thing that I have been through has brought me this far. It was a great year for many reasons, and I have a feeling 2013 will even better. I wish you guys a Happy New Year, and I hope you spend your last few minutes of 2012 with people who make you laugh and make you feel like you're the cat's pajamas. Cause guess what? YOU'RE IT!

Details: Dress // H&M , Sweater // Urban Outfitters , Hat // Target, Tights // F21 , Wild Diva Boots // Courtesy of Lulu's , Belt // Vintage; thrifted , Rings // Courtesy of Sway Chic & Lucky Brand

Inside The Kaleidoscope



Details: Top, Skirt // Urban Outfitters , Wild Diva Boots // Courtesy of Lulu's , Tights // Cynthia Rowley

As most of you know or have noticed most of my post titles are lyrics from songs, or song titles that may happen to be stuck in my head at that time. I realized last night while writing this post, that so much of my inspiration comes from music. If I am having a hard time thinking of something, I just play some music, and it gets all of the thoughts flowing almost immediately. I tend to relate to music much more when I can connect with the lyrics. I tend to be a big sap. Always connecting songs to memories, and memories to songs. I also find myself singing a lot more when I lack inspiration, it helps me feel centered. (for those of you who didn't know I like to record covers on my computer and play guitar even though my guitar skills are super rusty). I also find that thoughts come to me at the weirdest times, times when I am not ready for them and times when I don't have a computer in front of me to type it all down. That's why I carry a notebook with me at all times. I also have been known to fiercely type on my Iphone in the "notes" app in the subway just so I don't forget anything I want to say. When the words come they're like pure gold, and you just can't bare to forget them.

I started writing about music and inspiration because lately I have been feeling pretty dull and lacking it. I think the stress of the holidays got to me a little and I am just starting to settle down again. I am starting to think more about the future and in my head I am planning out some ideas that I would love to put into action once I am done with school. It's scary to think I will be done with school in May, now I am thinking...WHAT NEXT?! It's amazing how dreams can take form so fast. When I feel like I am doubting myself or being negative I just try to remember how far I've come, and then everything inside me seems to settle, as if I have absolutely nothing to worry about.

And So This Is Christmas









So another Christmas came and went, it all seemed to speed by so fast. I think I ate my weight in food (bacon especially) and overall it was a really relaxing Christmas Eve & Day. I think the best part was seeing how excited my nephews got for their toys, and for the arrival of Santa Claus. Putting out the cookies the night before, tracking his sleigh online, it's all so magical to children, and that's the most beautiful part of all.

It's been snowing, and raining here the past few days so I haven't gotten a chance to get any good outfit posts (blogger problems). I promise to be back to normal soon. I hope you guys had an excellent holiday filled with love and lots of food. I've been picking up some shifts at work since I have off, and I am anxiously anticipating hearing back about my interviews next week. Crossing my fingers that it all works out. 

It's crazy to think in a few short days the new year will be upon us. I haven't decided my final resolutions yet, but I have a few circulating around in my head at the moment. It's been a long crazy year, but those are usually the ones you learn most from. I wouldn't change a thing. Here's to an upcoming 2013, and a whole lot of living that needs to be done!